Khadijah and Khertima Waddell, died 2013-06-08, 18 years old

My name is Desiree Dian Waddell and I’m about to tell the world how my Perfect Life got turned around in a way no ones life should. One the 1st August 1994 I became one of the happiest women in the world when I delivered my BEAUTIFUL TWIN GIRLS!!! Khadijah  and Khertima Taylor they were the joy of my life , My life was complete , or so I thought, ten years down MORE JOY entered my life when I had my SWEET BABY BOY, And the girls became AWESOME BIG SISTERS, We were  the PERFECT FAMILY….I COULD WANT FOR NOTHING MORE…They were intelligent,  kind , loving,  and EVERYTHING PERFECT that a mother could ever ask for..we were inseparable…Then eighteen years after MY WHOLE WORLD FELL APART!! On Saturday  8th June 2013 my girls left home to celebrate their girlfriend’s birthday,which they usually do whenever the occasion came up.

The girls all attended St. Joseph’s Convent in San Fernando and were all close friends. Exams was almost over and they all wanted a break that weekend to go to the club to celebrate , knowing that they all were going to their separate lives soon , they wanted to hang out together and so they did. Being the SWEET, KIND , LOVING , THOUGHTFUL AND HUMBLE GIRLS  that they were I ALLOWED THEM TO GO…. I got on the sewing machine and made their outfits that night, watched them dress made sure their makeup was on point and they had me take about  one hundred pics before they left…yep that’s the routine EVERY TIME BEFORE THEY GO OUT. They kissed me said our “I LOVE YOUS” then they went towards the car , I watched them till I couldn’t  see the car anymore. I went into the house then closed the door and went to bed.

I awoke to a knock on the door, so I told their dad to go open the door they (,my girls) reach home, so he got up  opened the door , came back inside and told me two boys outside said they wanted to talk to me …I got up went to the door they were friends of my girls. The way they looked at me I knew something was not right, then they said ” Aunty we came to tell you the girls got into an accident, but don’t worry they are OK the police said to come to the hospital.” I fell back a bit and started to cry, I went into the house put some clothes on and left with the boys to go to the hospital. When I  arrived at the hospital, I went to the desk and asked the clerk if a twin was brought in from an accident, they said I don’t  know, then I saw one of the girls who was in the car on a stretcher, then I saw her mom, so I asked her where is KERDIE AND TIMA? she told me she don’t know.  I walked out to the yard asked the EHS workers if they brought in a twin from an accident? he told me no, but there are others to bring to the hospital, so my spirits got lifted a bit but still my heart was heavy. I walked off and stood in the parking lot of the hospital talking to God….Then there was a police van and another van behind, the officer started walking towards me and all I heard him say was “MAM ” and I fell to the ground and started BAWLING!!!

My sister and brother were there and they went down to the morgue, when they came back and I looked at their faces I JUST WANTED TO DIE RIGHT THERE AND THEN !! THAT DAY MY WHOLE WORLD WAS SHATTERED TO PIECES. On their way back home the driver of the car was speeding at a dangerous speed and KILLED MY TWIN GIRLS, HE WAS ALSO DRUNK…THEY WERE BEGGING HIM TO STOP SPEEDING AND HE JUST KEPT DOING IT!!! Another young lady in the car also died. When I visited the other girl at the hospital , I asked her what really happened, she said “AUNTY WE WERE TELLING HIM TO STOP AND HE JUST KEPT ON SPEEDING”…IT’S  ALMOST FOUR YEARS AND THAT DRIVER HAS NEVER BEEN CHARGED FOR ANYTHING!!!! To this day my life is a LIVING NIGHTMARE!!! I’ve been to EVERYONE I COULD TO GET JUSTICE BUT TO NO AVAIL!!!! No one knows the HEARTACHE AND PAIN I GO THROUGH EVERYDAY!!!

I just try to go about life taking care or my son, I started a support group to help other parents like me,as we all learn to live with the PAIN!!! EVERY TIME there is an accident I relive my PAIN, but I have to help the others that’s all I  know that I  HAVE to do in this life ….NO COUNCILLOR OR THERAPISTS CAN HELP ME, I KNOW THAT FOR A FACT….THAT PAIN LIVES WITH YOU FOREVER…AND TO ALL THE INCONSIDERATE DRIVERS OUT THERE …WHO BREAK THE LAWS OF THE ROADS I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT THE PAIN YOU ALL PUT IN OUR HEARTS IT NEVERRRRR LEAVES ….ONLY WHEN YOU’VE LIVED IT YOU’LL  KNOW …TO ALL OUT THERE WHO’VE  LOST LOVED ONES MAY GOD HELP YOU THROUGH YOUR ORDEALS , BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS ” ONLY GOD CAN HELP US…

I CHOSE TO BE A VOLUNTEER  WITH ARRIVE ALIVE TO LET THOSE DRUNK RECKLESS DRIVERS KNOW THAT YOU ARE DESTROYING FAMILIES. 

PLEASE STOP YOUR SELFISH INCONSIDERATE WAYS…..